Just talked to one other person I will hopefully seeing in ND when I’m there. The closer I’m getting to this trip, the more I’m looking forward to seeing the people, the river…aka the fish, but only 2 friends.

I could always rely on this disease being a good excuse for the way I was when I lived in ND. I could say I don’t remember a lot and that would be true. Until 2004 things previous have big gaps. It’s the disease, it’s all the drugs, it’s the bad mother I had,….. no it’s me.

The hardest day I ever had was the day I grew up, looked at myself in the mirror, and said, “No Chris. You live your life. It’s your fault.” The final peice of the puzzle was the MS.

I got no problems admitting my shortcomings. I was a real shit. That is why it bothers me so when I hear about people blaming me for things back in ND. STILL!! 10 yrs later!! I won’t get into perticulars, but I really feel people who have had issue’s should look into the mirror.

The best part is I honestly had nothing to do with the issues he had. Nothing. I never said I hated it, because it took an egomaniac down a notch, but sadly enough I had nothing to do with it. Hearing what I’ve heard makes me wish I was, but I had nothing to do with any of his issues. Darn!! LOL
It please me to no end, even with this disease, it’s one more person I’m healthier than. It’s nice to look in the mirror and be happy with my life. I got a hot wife, a disease I can manage and is having breakthroughs all the time, a website that as of today has 30k hits this month, a new device that allows me to walk better, and the ability to go back to the place I’m from.

Weird, move the Uncle and Aunt, Grandma, 2 friends, and a chunk of the Missouri River out of ND and the state could have a volcano go off for all I care.

It could be worse, I could be going there for good and not just for a visit!! LOL

PS- Walkaide is rocking on. Gotta carry a spare battery with me at all time I’m learning!